so THAT's why
OK - so I just got off the phone with Bill. I gently asked if he was going to make the call. He responded with irritation in his voice. I felt awkward enough asking - I am SO not a person who nags. I'm a martyr before a nag, any day - I'll go without my needs being met to avoid confrontation with certain people, my husband being one of them. I hated reminding him. Because I knew he'd respond with irritation as much as I know he won't do anything unless I continue to nag. Eureka, man. We BOTH need this to happen. We BOTH need closure. But HE is the only one who holds the power to bring it to a close, He is rightfully afraid of the counter-attack that is sure to ensue. I fear it, too, not because it affects me personally but because Bill will take the brunt of it and will be irritated and on edge for weeks afterwards. When he is unhappy, I am unhappy.
I hate the idea of pushing him into this conflict. But I hate the idea of me being dragged through something worse a year from now because we didn't take the initiative to take a stance now. And I hope it won't all cause a rift between us.
I suppose now I get to work through the guilt of feeling like a selfish nag. ACK.
I hate the idea of pushing him into this conflict. But I hate the idea of me being dragged through something worse a year from now because we didn't take the initiative to take a stance now. And I hope it won't all cause a rift between us.
I suppose now I get to work through the guilt of feeling like a selfish nag. ACK.
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Hopefully it doesn't take him too long to make that appt. and figure out it's all for the best